Absilog

I always make up scenarios and conversations in my head or stories that I know I'd never get to finish (or things I know I never have the courage to say or do). I have this dream of writing a book or at least conceptualize a romcom-ish story. Far fetched but who knows maybe one day... I could at least store them somewhere instead of replaying them in my mind. 

"There is no sincerer love than the love of food." -George Bernard Shaw

So I finally deactivated my Facebook account. Yay? Did not know it was this hard. LOL. I plan to come back after the May elections. Deactivating it made me realize how much time I spend scrolling and browsing my feed and falling for click bait articles. It's been.. I think a bit more than 2 weeks and I'm actually getting a hang of it (thank you snapchat for keeping me company).

I have always steered away from extreme feelings. Certain emotions that can make you feel vulnerable and act stupidly (basically all). But I recently just realized that you can't box up certain emotions because it will come back biting you in the back. Confuse you until you end up doing something even you can't explain. I may say I don't like having feelings, but I do have them. It's a different story when we talk about on how I act on them. I'm not saying that my actions are valid. Sometimes they aren't. I wouldn't tell people to act the same way I do. But it's done already. And honestly, right now I don't know what to do. I would like to think that I have released all my emotions and feelings in this trip. Sang my heart out and ate my feelings. I doubt it though. It's still not clear, even to me, how I and what to feel. If it's actually good or bad. But I'm sure it does not taste like that big ass baked oyster. Good thing, in...

Dear 2015, I'm sorry I took you for granted. I'm sorry I thought that time flew fast. I'm sorry for looking forward to 2016 so much that I forgot to thank you. It has been one hell of an amazing roller coaster ride.

Things that I wanted to do right now, taken more than a year ago. Why I want to deactivate my Facebook: Makes me hate human kind even more. I can't help but judge my Facebook "friends" based on their posts. I hate being judged so as much as possible I don't like doing the same. Nobody left to stalk. I don't like anybody *that* much.

I am not a fan of reading subtitles. I know asian dramas/rom-com are way better than our local versions but blech subtitles. I blame it on my low EQ and short attention span. But I decided to try watching Running Man after a friend recommended it. And I was hooked. It started as a 2 episode per week routine. Then ended up a daily habit, considering they have 200+ episodes. I also started browsing Running Man related tumblrs (I actually browsed one tumblr from start to finish which is around a hundred pages). And for the first time in my fangirling life, I'm considering reading fanfics.